New burger video on the way and other topics 2016-11-17

Good late evening YouTube. So we have an armist. New project. Okay. So what am I doing? Well I will show you what I'm doing. What am I doing? Well right now I am working on a spicy burger recipe here. I call it a crazy spicy burger. Crazy spicy burger. And let's see. I had a pee really badly on a second. It's a deal. At it's private. It's unsupply. Okay. Okay. Now the video would have been in one take but hold on a second. Okay. Okay. Okay. Anyways. In the cooking video that I'm uploading I talk briefly about. Just very briefly. In the cooking video. I discuss the sex doll I would pick out if I was in the market for one. Now funny thing about this is that one even though I want to pay vapor back he's saying I don't have to. So I guess for the time being but whether he wants me to or not or not is not going to happen eventually maybe not right away in the near future but anyway long story shorts when I gotten that sex doll sent me in the mail. I don't know YouTube I lost interest in the idea you know because I figured to myself hey I'm you know I'm not going to get it all moderately attractive enough. And because the video itself is like 40 plus minutes long it's going to take a while if we put the two videos together and normally when someone calls me on the phone I can just take hang up and continue recording the video but for some odd reason I didn't happen this time around but when the video stopped it was practically towards the end of it anyway. So yeah. First half of the video didn't quite capture me sticking the toothpicks into the sandwich that I made but then the second half shows toothpicks in the sandwiches plus me eating it so yeah. First half of the video I'm going through right now. Second half of the video included and then after all the first half of the video pretty much shows me making the burger and yeah. I don't know YouTube earlier this is a little bit of a video that I'm going to do last couple of days I've been kind of depressed because of what I did you know and several people have told me hey look none of your fans that were involved with the whole fiasco hate you for it you know in fact my homeboy Scott he told me that you know the majority of those people have been following me for years and this one little incident is not going to be enough to deter them from not following me so yeah. And maybe I should have mentioned something like several weeks before the dog had sent me but I had no idea. Okay. And you know if I was in the market for one I had one specifically picked out but I wasn't because I didn't have the money and while other factors played into it too it wasn't just the money issue it was also you know an issue of well I'm young enough now that's you know I probably could get a girlfriend if I had if I played my cards right you know what I'm saying kind of thing yeah. A lot of people whenever I talk shit about myself not getting a girlfriend like oh ha ha you know kind of thing a lot of people are quick to point out well you say you can't get a girlfriend to save your life but what about Stephanie? Honestly I don't know how the fuck that happened you know I was at job core and one of my other autistic friends Emma she was she was talking to me and she goes well my friends Stephanie really like shoes like to meet her and at the time in the back of my head I'm like okay how many girls just openly admit they like me like that and in the back of my head I'm thinking you know what if she's kind of cute give her a chance and you know what's going to happen right after I met her two years later you know which all things considered most people like 98% of people do not stay together with their first anyways that's just there is a 2% there's a 2% of people 2% of people who usually do stay with their first girlfriend or boyfriend but it hardly ever happens most people don't last that long with their first girlfriend or boyfriend anyway and you know being straights and moderately attractive and having no confidence in myself it's kind of a bitch you know and I was actually quite surprised that based off of statistics I was able to make the relationship I had with Stephanie last as long as it did you know add that to the list of regrets YouTube freaking add that to the list of regrets freaking add that to the list of regrets add that to the list of things I can't change add that to the list of learn from your mistakes kind of thing you know shoot if I had a girlfriend right now or managed to get one in the near future if I managed to get a girlfriend in the near future that had even one fourth of the chemistry me and Stephanie had before the whole Vans go ended you know I've learned enough now from my mistakes that you know that cheating doesn't work you too but if you're not going to be happy with the person you're going to cheat on them it'd be much better for that person if you just broke up with them honestly I know it may hurt you or that person but what's going to hurt them more is if they can't cheat you cheating on them you know and that's the thing of it YouTube is Stephanie never would have caught me never you know I could have gotten away with that shit slickity quick and Stephanie would have been none the wiser but that little voice in the back of my head that little voice in the back of my head that's like you're a scumbag piece of shit with a fucker you to lie to Stephanie like that that's your first girlfriend your first your first fucking everything and you're going to fucking treat her like this that little voice in the back of my head that said maybe you should tell her and you know work through things that was a horrible idea holy fucking shit YouTube if I could go back in time I never would have cheated on Stephanie and if I couldn't go back that far I'd go back far enough to tell myself hey hey hey hey don't tell her anything just keep your mouth shut yeah but that's all in the past you know it's what it is what it is but more so I've been kind of depressed because I feel bad about destroying this stuff all that was sent to me you know the circumstances in which that shit happened you know I kind of wish that I hadn't listened to the trolls in the first place and that one and it did break on me like the first time before I completely destroyed it that I would have handled it much better but then again you know Vapresses I don't have to pay him back and a lot of my fans will forgive me in time for this they realize that you know hey and the second thing I've learned is that don't destroy things you know losing your temper and destroying things does nothing for me in the long run maybe in the short term you're getting rid of some quickly acquired built up anger but in the long fucking run it's not doing me any good I like this morning when frickin this morning when I woke up to turn off my alarm on my phone and as I'm sitting there trying to turn off the alarm on my phone I somehow managed to turn off my my iTunes one of my iTunes songs that I have in my collection and I didn't mean to turn on my iTunes and I got pissed I'm trying to turn off my alarm on my phone and also my iTunes at the same time and if I would just calmly take my mouse walk over to the iTunes app click on it and hit the stop button instead of freaking out it's happy my computer screen like stop stop stop you know the crack in my main screen was already pretty bad and me tapping on it this morning oh god damn it it's me tapping on my screen this morning only made it worse and then of course me demonstrating are you fucking kidding me I did not mean to do that oh my god I very ever so slightly bring my hand up just a gesture of communication really and I somehow managed to knock my fucking phone off the charger oh my god okay here's the thing slick what happened here was yeah I could have just said what I did I didn't have to demonstrate on my computer screen because as soon as I fucking did that as soon as I fucking did that shit as soon as I did this shit I guess what happened YouTube that section of screen that broke the section of screen that cracked on me pretty badly this morning well that little section came free and now it's stuck in my between the computer screen and the main screen oh god damn it I don't I can't get there we go slowly but surely all right well unfortunately I can't quite oh second I can't fuck I can't get that piece out so I think I'm just better off waiting until I can get the main screen replaced I'm better off doing that than trying to dig this chunk out of the screen you know I find look at this odd shaped crack in my screen right now and well the only thing that's affected is the main screen like the screen behind the screen okay the screen behind the screen is just fine so if I leave it alone I don't lose my temper on my computer anymore we should be golden here granted that looks a little funky having it like that but again I don't have the money to just open the replace the main screen on my computer so fucking deal with it until I do I guess I don't know how I did it I really don't you know I'm sitting there and then that was just you saw what happened right like I could just say I tapped on the screen with my finger I didn't actually have to fucking do it and make it worse now I got this big old chunk broken off completely from my screen like the main screen itself and yeah it looks like shit so I don't know YouTube like if I can even get this chunk out and the answer is probably not so I'm not gonna fuck with it I'm just gonna leave it alone because if I try to fix it now what have I learned in the past YouTube what have I learned in the past if I personally do not know how to fix it then don't fuck with it because chances are all make it worse and I can already see it happening too me trying to fix my computer screen and get this little idiot chunk of main screen pulled out and then fucking the fucker just breaks on me even more so I'm just damn don't fuck with it until a professional can look at it and what have you anyway the opening of my burger video basically consists of if I hadn't given up on the sex doll idea and if I had the money and if I was basically in the market for one that's the one I would pick out also in the video I talked about paying back that thousand and vapor says I don't have to do it well for the time being that's fine I guess because I can't do it anyway but if I get an opportunity to pay vapor back I will you know I don't care if he says not to or not like you know what I'm saying and the point of the whole the whole point of this is I feel bad for what I did that I've genuinely learned from my mistakes for a change and there's several things in life YouTube there's several things in life that I regret doing that I can't take back if something's in high school or I wish I'd never done you know like if I had a fucking time machine I would go back in time and I'd be like to my past self and I would be like listen here dude okay don't stalk or overly check out any of these girls in high school and my past self would look at me like I'd be like I know bro I know right now you go into high school with a lot of attracted women I know this okay this is something you'll never forget when you're older okay but you'll have your first girlfriend when you're in your 20s so just I don't know focus more on your studies and even more on your guitar playing and these women aren't even interested in you right now just focus on something else please you'll save yourself so much so many years of excuse me you'll save yourself so many years of heartache and frustration just bro like these girls are out of your league right now bro come on no it's one thing if you occasionally check somebody out like yeah you know especially if that person is attractive okay if that particular woman in question is attractive and she knows she's attractive and the worst somebody does is occasionally check them out every so often okay fine whatever that's one thing but if you got someone who's constantly staring at you because they find you super attractive and they don't know how to like I don't know put the words together without sounding completely obsessive you know I'm saying kind of thing which when you have aspergers and you like something it's other complicated um freaking yeah having aspergers and having a crush on a girl really sucks because the combination is quite unhealthy I mean there's nothing unhealthy about my sexual attraction to women but the unhealthy part of it is that if I happen to have a crush on a girl and I let it get the better of me I can become obsessed real quickly which doesn't do me any good especially if a girl doesn't like me back and nine times at a 10 that's usually the case YouTube is all develop a crush on a girl that doesn't even like me and you know freaking 85 to 90% of the women I come into contact with are a little bit creeped out by me or they don't understand me so they're like okay who the fuck is this guy you know and the 10% that do not find me creepy they actually know me and get along with me and shit well the 5% out of that 10% that are attractive don't see me as that kind of person I'm usually either friend zone or they're just not interested in me you know and the other 5% I'm not even attracted to like physically so yeah it kind of sucks you know like I've had a couple okay I'm not gonna lie YouTube I've had a couple of moderately attractive women find me attractive these last couple months but not a whole lot I can do if they're on Facebook and they're halfway across the goddamn country you know that's real fucking convenient for me and it and if women want to call me shallow because I have standards all they hypocrisy is so thick you can cut it with a knife and the reason why I say that is because any woman who calls a man a pig for having standards they need to take a serious look in the mirror and ask themselves what kind of guy they're attracted to and the very second the very fucking second they answer that question the very fucking second they answer that question they need to realize oh wait I was just giving that guy a shithering having standards and here I am and I have standards oh my god it's so frustrating about frustrating is when you look at a girl and she's creeped out by you because quote unquote you're the wrong guy you know you're not you're not popular enough for her you know like how dare you check her out how dare you acknowledge the fact that she's attractive oh you monster women like that are so fucking stuck up and vain they pissed me off YouTube like okay I get it okay excessive stirring is creepy but if the guy if a guy checks you out you have to take that as a compliment even if you don't find that person attractive that's something I've had to learn YouTube okay is even if the woman in question checking me out it's not that attractive to me at least I have a woman checking me out you know I'm saying and even if I'm grossed out by the fact that I have that I have an unattractive woman checking me out at least I can say hey you know I'll take it as a compliment to an extent because fuck at least I can say that women don't check me out because I cannot say that because that be a bullshit lie there are some women that I cast checking me out it sold them happens and where it does some of them are attractive yeah some of them and so attractive you know the kind where you might have to have alcohol involved to you don't want to consider fucking them because that's so nasty they look and it's like bro come on I'm at least a four at the minimum here I mean I'm being maybe I'm being too generous on myself here but if we're talking about attractiveness at the bare minimum I'm at least a four okay I mean I have some quality that I redeem myself for you know I'm saying my my large muscles my ability to sing play guitar that's three things that's trouser snake between my legs that's four really those the only four qualities I can see in myself and maybe someone who likes me and stuff as a friend you know I'm saying they're gonna see more qualities than that but if I have to push myself to find redeeming qualities in myself those are the only four I can okay wait I'm a good cook okay that's five big muscles awesome ability to play guitar awesome ability to sing a big penis and the ability to cook really those are the only five things you really need to attract a woman from the start but to keep her you got to have other things to like a job and you know shit like that which we'll see I guess we'll see what happens once a good job I mean chances are if I don't be the girlfriend want to do good job it's not gonna be immediate I know okay I'm saying like give it a couple months after I've had a job I actually have some financial stability and I can actually be in a spot in my life where I can comfortably blow 200 to 300 dollars at a bar in one night just just because I can and because I have my date with me you know what I'm saying kind of thing but yeah if you're going to a bar to take your girl off for a date maybe she's not your girlfriend yet but if you go into a bar for her first dates nothing wrong with that but it helps to have at least a hundred dollars on hand if you go into a bar that's not too terribly expensive you know I'm saying it helps to have at least a hundred dollars on it because there are some bars that will charge 12 bucks for a drink yeah that's bullshit I mean if you're drinking just beer and cheap drinks and you grow get yourself something to eat you know saying you and your date whatever you want to call it that's cool too but 12 I've seen bars charged 12 bucks for a drink and I'm like a god 12 dollars for a drink I could buy a bottle for 12 dollars dude granted it wouldn't be nothing fancy if I've used some gut rock vodka but shit dude you buy a bottle for ten dollars of cheap mass vodka and you spend two dollars on a two liter of chase for your golden dude you know nine times that ten what stops me to go into a bar money and that usually when I get money did you usually when I get money to drink I like drinking at home for the most part because one among a very social person and two bars can get expensive after a drink but now there's only like two bars that can go to on this side of town that aren't closed because the freaking sand bar closed the wonder bar closed so literally the only two bars I can go to on this side of town without calling a cab I mean there are walking distance but that's it you know they're not too terribly ridiculous would be frosties and gym and carons those are the only two bars I can go to on this side of town really and I mean there are other bars I can go to if I have the money and I'm old and I am I'm 25 I'm old enough to go to a bar but excuse me it's beside the point freaking yeah yeah and now I'm kind of wishing I hadn't destroyed that sucks to all you know because chances are that's hey that would you know that was a nice a really nice gesture you know like freaking I have another real girlfriend is so fucking long that I forget what it feels like you know I'm saying and then yeah also in the near future I will be going to get to myself checked because once you've had sex a couple times it's important to do these kinds of things I'm I'm 100% confident I don't have anything but it doesn't hurt to go and get checked anyways you know I'm saying YouTube is good to periodically check yourself and they they have a bunch of clinics here in town that I can go and check myself so yeah I don't know even with the job I might I might have had more options available because you know when you get a job and I should make money for yourself you know I'm saying you can excuse me you can open up all kinds of opportunities for yourself now my family invited me to go with them on vacation for Thanksgiving which don't get me wrong I appreciate the offer but I don't have a job right now and my dad's like well you don't need a job I'll pay for everything and it's not that I don't appreciate that because I do it's just that like I kind of need a job right now that's more important than going on vacation right now you know so I mean I guess I'll just have to and I won't be completely alone on Thanksgiving I guess assuming one of my friends that I hang out with regularly calls me up and says hey bro you want to come you know have some turkey with those or whatever you know I'd be like I'm sure why not you know kind of thing but here's the thing I don't want to you know I gotta be here in town for Thanksgiving because what if someone calls me in for an interview and says if it's a possibility I've been applying to jobs lifting right lately you know it's a possibility what if someone says hey let's give this guy a call you know and I don't want them to be like someone calling me and be like oh could you come in for an interview I don't know that it mean being on vacation I'd be like oh geez I really can't because I'm out of town right now kind of thing like that they probably reschedule it would be like well I guess we can't hire you right now you know the circumstances are what they are the doll when it was made was poorly made and shipping and handling was ridiculously poor and on top of that you know I have always troll comments telling me a bunch of shit and it was just a really bad snowball effect honestly knock on wood I said the S word hmm which is weird and Wyoming by now we usually have a little bit of snow which I'm not complaining in the slightest YouTube um but it's November and no snow on the ground and normally in Wyoming by this time of the year we have snow on the ground but we haven't had we've only had like a little bit of frost and that's it I know in December we might get a little bit of snow and I'm okay with that even though I hate snow I'm sorry that's having a loud yeah fuck snow okay I can do a fix and small doses like if I have to get from plenty to point B and I gotta walk my my miserable autistic lonely ass across town and get something done it's snowing outside so be it I'll get to my destination one way or another but generally speaking I hate snow I fucking hate it is just the absolute worst there's no need for it all does is make everything cold and miserable snow is a bit more bearable if you're bundled up you know and enough to where it's it's tolerable you know but Wyoming winters get nasty and I mean Wyoming winters get nasty YouTube and I mean fucking nasty the coldest I've seen it getting Casper is negative eight degrees with a wind shell of snow just hitting you in the face oh but with the way the weather's been going lately I could foresee us not having very much snow on December I have a feeling it's gonna be a very warm winter this time around and all I gotta say to that is climate change climate change global warming and my weather magic the combination of the three is worth causing Casper Wyoming to have such awesome weather especially with the frickin it's almost like almost the middle of November you know and not a lick of snow like I'm trying to prolong the snow as long as humanly possible here using my powers to do it and I look outside and there's no snow and people want to sit there and say let's just judge your news aspergers I fucking hate when people would say shit like that they have no idea oh that's just Josh has been you know they fucking they laugh it off as oh you have to know I'm kind of thing let's just Josh has asked burgers yeah yeah mother fuckers who make jokes like that don't even know that I'm going places one of these days YouTube I am going places with my life and we'll see YouTube we will see yeah mother fuckers that would laugh at me oh Josh and his cobras LOL yeah I'm the one that's still laughing about it because I'm the one with the cult following on YouTube huh huh this fucking small ass fucking town in North Dakota that used to live in people there be like oh Josh his cobras LOL haha haha on the one laughing at them for saying that because I'm the one with the cult following on YouTube 4,717 subscribers and glowing oh damn like last time I checked my subscription count 4,717 there's a good chance I might break 5,000 subscribers within a couple of months which could you imagine YouTube I know at 4,000 subscribers I said that I was going to do the T-Wex burger challenge but I didn't count on getting fired from the job I've had for 4 years and then being financially screwed for several months after that like 4 years and a month after I had that job and boom I was terminated for the most bullshit reasons and the job market and Casper right now you can't get a job but it's very tough because the economy and Casper are kind of sucks right now a lot of businesses are closing oil field workers are getting laid off and on top of that fucking every other month we're hearing stupid shit like Wyoming takes another budget cut statewide budget cut and I'm seeing my fellow Wyoming nights struggle in the city Wyoming economy and it pisses me off YouTube but I've learned a long time ago YouTube and I've learned this a long time ago getting pissed off at the issues you cannot change doesn't do you any good getting pissed off at circumstances that are under control someone is someone were to ask me if you could have anything you want for Christmas just two things what would it be my answer is world peace and from marijuana and hemp and a bunch of other shit to be legal all across the globe and by a bunch of other shit I mean shrooms payoity, celvia, dmt acid natural coke fuck that crack shit and yeah that organic spice that gets you high without all the chemicals and shit because natural spice that's made from plants and herbs that naturally gets you high is where it's at fuck this synthetic shit yeah I legalize all of that and I also legalize hemp all across the world and I would tell every country I would be like okay now that you're legal for these substances tax it regulated take that money you taxed off of those substances and pump it back into your country's economy most of what I listed off is made from plants to begin with minus dmt yeah like cannabis hemp coke okay all the natural organic plant forms that are used to get you high end or make shit okay dmt salvia as a plant that should be legal which I believe it is to a degree dmt should be legal because our bodies naturally produce it only three times during your life when you produce dmt once before you're born once before you die and the majority of your life when you sleep at night when you're dreaming you know when you dream at night and you're in a whole different world when you're dreaming that it is the cause of dmt firing off in your brain when you sleep at night there's no getting that chunk of broken screen out on my computer the screen behind it's just fine so we're golden I'm not gonna fuck with it anymore I guess until it we have an Apple store here in town those I don't know how much it would cost to replace the main screen as an only I'm not worried about it just if I lose my temper and I want here's the thing if I lose my temper and I want to punch something punch my bed seriously like there's no way I can break my physically break my bed although to be fair youtube sometimes I don't think before I act and when I do usually I end up fucking myself in some way these last couple of days now I have nothing to cuddle with at night you know that that sucks to awkward even though it was poorly made it could have been something youtube something to cuddle with at night but no now I'll never get that opportunity because of my dumbass mistakes you know it's kind of like learning to forgive myself for what I've done in high school to some of the women I used to have a crush on I have to learn to forgive myself most of them by now I forgive me because they realize that's high school you know it should happen I made dress and looked the same as I did in high school well minus all is right here but I'm a different person I'm not the same person I was in high school I'm much more angry and depressed I'm much more angry and depressed and I actually know my boundaries like I'm not even joking with you youtube there are sometimes here in town there are sometimes here in town where if I see a cute girl walking down the street I kind of want to check her out a little bit you know but there's times I don't because I don't want her getting offended by me for checking her out you know as stupid as that sounds there are times I will catch attractive women out of my peripheral vision and I want to stop and check them out for a minute not really a minute that's a figure of speech when I say a minute you know I'm saying but yeah there's times I'll see a tractor women walking down the street and I want to stop and check them out a little bit but the reason I don't is because I don't want them looking at me going ew who the fuck is this loser checking me out so for that reason alone I don't do it now I pretty much I hang out with my close circle of friends that I have and when I hang out with the close circle of friends that I have apart from that I keep to myself now if I was more of a social person chances are I wouldn't have a hard time getting a girlfriend but you know I get so sick and tired of people saying I blame everything on my ass burgers and I and I don't okay when I say things like me having ass burgers makes it hard for me to get a girlfriend I'm not blaming my social luck with women on my ass burgers I'm bringing my disorder to awareness dammit because it's well known fact that you have ass burgers syndrome that you're going to struggle with social cues and I cannot tell you how bad that was when I was younger like when I was younger it was way bad holy shit when I was younger I didn't think when I was younger no one told me to just you have ass burgers you fucking retarded freak keep to yourself a correction socially retarded freak there we go that's more appropriate I'm sure people get tired of me dog and on myself all the time I don't care YouTube I don't care okay I will dog on myself all goddamn day and the reason why I do it is because one I have a low self esteem and two of you shows these fucking trolls that they can talk all the shit they want about me it doesn't affect me because I talk shit about myself to myself all the goddamn time yeah I may be kind of gifted with music but the trade-off YouTube is that I'm socially awkward oh damn I do I can see the bottom of my cherry pie to back go I mean I have a little bit of pie to back on his other bag left but I'm definitely running low I mean pie to back goes nice when you ain't got a fucking job and you had a fucking sitter at so long damn time I mean I've had fans send me to back a before and it was always greatly appreciated whatever fans would send me to back on I always do a review of the tobacco they sent me on my YouTube channel you know that kind of thing I'm just I'm done destroying things my fans send me because at some point I had to realize that okay at some point it would click in my head that maybe just maybe you know like that because that what I'm sitting here now when I'm sitting here miserable because I'm alone and because I'll never find anybody what I'm sitting here pissed off at the world miserable because I'll never find a girlfriend that I truly connect with and I'll be alone the rest of my life you know sitting here saying well you had a sex doll your fans sent you to try to soften that blow just a little bit but no you had to fucking destroy because you got pissed off it was poorly made in the way it was shipped and then you got fucking convinced by trolls and shit even though I'm confident I'll be alone the rest of my life I'm still young enough to where you know give it some time see what happens just know that if I if I happen to have $3,000 just laying around saved up somewhere and that if I haven't had a girlfriend in a couple years that it's an option at least I'll tell you right now YouTube the older you get okay the older you get the older you get the harder it becomes to find a girlfriend that's just the truth of it and to tell you the truth YouTube relationships aren't all they're cracked up to be like from an outsider's perspective you know from an outsider's perspective it is kind of cool to um to think about you know to actually have a girl to cuddle up with and talk to every day you know I'm saying all that good shit you know but then you got to deal with a whole bunch of other shit when you're in a relationship with a female or a male doesn't matter which one you have to deal with you have to deal with her friends and your friends you might have to deal with her friends trying to convince her oh he's not good enough for you it's kind of thing you might also have to deal with you might also have to deal with your friends saying oh dude come on she's such a bitch you could use so better blah blah blah blah and they don't even know they're just pissed off that they could just be pissed off that you're spending less time with them so if you actually have a social wife and you actually have a couple of friends you know I'm saying kind of thing when you have a girlfriend you have to learn to be able to make time for both your friends and for your girlfriend otherwise you're gonna get the whole you never spending any time with me argument and it's just as far as the whole Bailey incident goes when she was getting her asked by telemarketers she changed your number and in doing so she lost my homeboy scarities number and probably didn't bother to look it up again because every time she made plans to hang out with me nothing happened plans changed kind of thing and whenever I would express my frustrations with it people make their accusations about my homeboy scarity and it pissed me off it's like you're gonna make me feel bad because you know I missed out on potentially a good date you know because when one scarity was telling me was this is what scarity was telling me was that Bailey has asked burgers she plays a guitar she has a pet snake and she listens to create a little filth I'm like hey come on it does not like you you could not physically like holy shit you could not physically have planned that more perfectly but the thing if it is YouTube that just because we have a lot in common doesn't mean we'll click world it doesn't mean we'll click world together you know and that is the unfortunate reality of dating youtube is that you can have a lot in common with somebody but that's not gonna be enough you know that's not gonna be enough the thing if it is YouTube is like I said you can have a lot in common with somebody but if you don't feel that that spark you know I'm saying it just ain't gonna happen you know kind of thing an attraction it works on two levels the first level is physical it is the one thing that makes humans check each other out is that physical attraction to whatever sex you're attracted to you know and yeah speaking of pipe tobacco oh looky here and on top of that Bailey spokes a pipe I'm not even shit knew this guy's almost alive oh you gotta be fucking kidding me so right after that and we already have a lot in common and so yeah I was eager to meet her but the final straw youtube was when right around last Christmas my homeboy Scott he said hey Bailey's having a court on quote new year's Eve party and you're invited oh sweet what was it gonna be he mentions the day but all right all right all right had I known YouTube had I known that I was gonna be back in time for her party I had no idea you know like I went to out of state to visit family for the holidays and I came back into states and we're staying with family for a little bit before returning to Casper and I had no idea if I was gonna be back in time for Bailey's party or not and it turns out you know excuse me I farted but I literally called my homeboy up and I said bro look I don't know if I want to make it in time for Bailey's party or not so yeah that's what he called Bailey and told her this and she ended up canceling the party because I wasn't gonna be in town and then I get back to town just in time for the party and I had no idea when I try calling my homeboy Scott he have I'm like bro once Bailey's party I'm back in town he's like she can't something man I'm like what she goes yeah she didn't think you were gonna be in town I'm like fuck but here's the thing YouTube Bailey does not do social media so I can't just contact you on Facebook and be like what up though and so because of that you know being is I'm somebody who's kind of big in the social media and somebody who's also kind of a big deal on social media like to sit there and say that I'm not famous on YouTube would be a fucking lie now I'm not like ridiculously famous on the internet mind you my internet fame is not like super mega ridiculous but it's definitely there there's definitely enough people who watch my shit on YouTube to where you know I'm kind of a big deal on the internet I'm not like the coolest thing on YouTube mind you but I'm starting to get recognition for what I do on YouTube okay I got to mount this camera better because this fucking thing my desk would move and they went at moves the camera moves with it there we go damn it oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh damn it oh oh oh oh anyway I just got done watching the new episode of South Park and as usual it was pretty funny they made Mr. Garrison look like Donald Trump kind of I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I 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But then again, I probably wouldn't because I'm too much of a homebody. I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I In fact, the last girl I had sex with YouTube, when I was eating her pussy and I could tell she was really getting into it. I I had sex with enough girls to recognize Body language, when a girl is physically getting off. In fact, the last girl I had sex with, she was like, you're really good at this. That being said, that's another reason why I I You know, which sex thought pick out if I had the money and if it was an option available? By option, I mean like I said, you know, if I had had a girlfriend in a couple of years and You know Kind of thing. Yeah Right now I've been struggling real bad these last couple of months. But you know, YouTube Things are bound to get better eventually. 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